Name: I am MJ.
Age: About 16.
I am recovering.
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Saturday, November 01, 2003
Hi! Today is November 1st, 2003. I woke up at 10:30, ate some cold chinese (tasty) and went to Book-A-Million to do some volunteer work. They recently changed the layout of the manga section, so some of the good titles are displayed with the picture showing. They also got in a couple of new titles including a really good one called "Confedential Confessions." It's about real life situations, but it's really powerful stuff. I wouldn't touch it if your not up to it. Then Mom picked me up and we went to Dulci and Phil's. For the first 2 and a half hours, we ate pizza, and played Unreal Tournament, but at 8:30-9:00 we started a movie.The Animatrix. I finally got around to seeing it. It was great. It showed a good deal of detail about the matrix and it's origin, showed different perspectives on the matirx, and showed us that dude that says Neo saved him in Reloaded. It was mind bending. I got home at 11 and tried to call Alexis to wish her a happy birthday )(her birthday is the day after mine), but I didn't get an answer, so I hung up. I'll call her tomorrow. Thanks for reading!
MJ
Posted at 11:38 pm by Akumeon
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I'm desperate for pity. Can I have some?
Hey! Today was my birthday! Money is still tight, but Mom still managed to come through. She got me The Rosetta Stone Japanese Explorer, which is a language tutor, supposedly the best computer one in the world, we ordered good hand -tossed pizza, and she's going to get me new speakers and a track ball mouse from Phil. I wish she didn't think she had to do mulitply things and take the expensive route. I keep telling her not to always splurge, to save a bit, cause then I wouldn't have to loan her money, and I could be a kid and not have to worry about it. But back to life. I wore a black cape to school today. It wasn't because of Halloween, or my birthday, but because I wanted to. Call it a whim. I think everyone was secretly jealous, even though deep down everyone just pities me. Which is all I ask for. I need love, attention, and input. So at school, I told people it was my birthday, got choirs of "Happy Birthday!"and one card. Amanda got me a card that says "On your birthday, See no evil, Hear no evil, Speak no evil....but that leaves Do no evil wide open." and a gift card for a local theater. It was a great thing for her to do, and made me think my life was a bit better than previously thought. Why did I think that? Because the period before that, I saw Mitch and Katie (who I keep accidentally calling Felisha on accident) talking. I knew they were talking about sex (Mitch is like the shortest kid in class, so Katie thinks that's cool), and Katie said "You know i'll tie you to a chair and rape you." and they went on talking, and at two times Greg got into the conversation, the first time saying "Katie, do your boobs make up 14% of your body weight?" and then "I made cream cheese listening to you." which I find kinda disturbing, but even so I felt left out. It was one of the times I realize I have no friends. It's not that I'm unsocialable, it's just that I am cynical, I have a habit of over-analyzing things, and I have seen so much I can understand the real world (kinda falls under cynicism, but I feel they're different in some ways too.). When this combines with my unique and creative personality, I understand it can be hard to approach me. But I desperatly need someone to talk to. I am at a point in puberty where I need someone I can trust and one who can understand me. Like in science today we were discussin g life on other planets, and I said they would be Marskimos, eskimos on Mars, because it's so cold, and everyone was like "Your an idiot, MJ."But when you think about it, if humans lived on Mars, we'd be like eskimos in Margloos. Eat a Marlar Bear and go Marice fishing. But no one understud the concept. And I got so much homework piling up, I wanna start writing now that I have a plot and a character and some details, but I procrastinate, and it's gonna cost me. I'm done babbling and rambling for now. Say something if you pretend to want to care.
-MJ
Posted at 02:09 am by Akumeon
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Thursday, October 30, 2003
Hi! I'm sorry I haven't posted recently, but my mother was always around, and I don't want her to see what I write, which is kinda strange, since I don't even know you people, but I'm telling you all kinds of things. But then again, I don't have to live with you. I spent all of last night working on a history project (an entire colonial newspaper) that was due today, and I finished, I hope I get full credit. Today I did the minimum ammount of work as possible while not having alot of homework (I still have some all variable algebra(I believe it's called literal equations) and it's like S=L-rL, and we need to find what L equals (which is L= S divided by (1-r)). It's pretty pointless. In English, we're going to start a newspaper (I'm going to ask for my own column), but I have no idea what Taylor or Amanda might do. I'd like to have a job that allows me to work with them. At lunch Rahma was still fasting. I wish I had the pride to do something like that, even though I know she only does it because it's her religion (she's muslim I think). I had to get a new I.D., not because I lost mine, but because I left it at home. I came home, found out the cable guy will be here between now and three hours from now, so I gotta hurry before he comes to unplug me. Tomorrow is my birthday. I hope someone not related to me remembers. I think it would be nice if a complete stranger came up to me and said "Happy Birthday!" like I do. Which reminds me! In fifth period, Jennifer wrote me a birthday note/card thing, and she said her pumpkin sucked, so I drew her a pumpkin like XD, only with space between the 'eyes'. I gotta go now, but I'm sure I will be on in the future.
Posted at 05:10 pm by Akumeon
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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
What do I have to say for you to read this?
Hi! Today at school we went on a field trip to our local newspaper, which actually has a circulation of over 300,000. We missed the first four periods and then went to a park. We got divided into groups of 2 and gave an assignment(you can spell two cuss words from assignment). It was really boring, but my partner, Lauren, kept rubbing my inner thigh with her shoe. Then midway through, our teacher had to split up a group, so Courtny got added to our group. She's a grade lower than me and Lauren, but she's very logical, which makes her pretty smart. Near the end of the project they were debating what the correct definition or an orgasm was. I tried to stay out of it, but now I wish I would have put more input in.... Oh well, no sense dwelling on the past, I am sure Lauren will talk to me again! I came home, and decided I don't wanna be a hobo when I grow up, so I'm going to do my homework, and afterwords probably write some more in my OJ(online journal(kinda strange it's an OJ, though)). Please talk to me, because no system can operate without feedback!
MJ
Posted at 05:12 pm by Akumeon
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Monday, October 27, 2003
Hi! Wheither you've been following along or just tuning in, you will be able to appriciate this. I had a dream 4 days ago. It starts out in a blue room. I notice some things about myself is different, like I'm wearing clothes I don't own and I have no scab on my hand (accident with a metal ruler). This makes me think it is something yet to come. But anyways. I'm wearing a watch and I walk towards a door. I go outside, and I see the really annoying black kid in my class named Anthony. What kind of a name is Anthony for a black kid? He comes up to me and tells me the earthquake has started. I walk away and suddenly an earthquake does start. I live in Florida. Nearest techtonic movement - 2000 miles. But anyways. I know that the only way it will start is if everyone stops thinking. Then I go into a warehouse and there's Amanda(read last entry for details) She's standing next to a tall wall of paint. I remember specifically the sky blue paint falling from the ceiling. I take her hand, and throw her onto a matress. Then I do something that tunrs this dream into a nightmare. I take out a gun, cock it, and shoot her repeatedly. I must have emptied twenty rounds in her chest. I then go to her body and pray. I woke up next, in an icey cold sweat. I hope that this dream was just that - a dream, because if I was to go on a homicidal rampage, she would be that second to last to go. I would be last. But the strange coincidenses started to happen. My mom says our neighbors just painted their interior red. Maybe that's where it all starts. And Anthony talks to me more often. I'm a little edgy aroung Amanda now, because as it says in the Bible, you can't escape death.
Posted at 06:28 pm by Akumeon
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Will anyone read this? I'd like to know I'm not writing this for just myself...
Hello again! Today is Monday, October 27th, and only 4 more days until my birthday. Or rather, 4 days until I was born 14 years ago. Today at school in second period gym we were playing basketball, and basketball is not a good game for me because I cannot throw or catch. I can dribble and run though! Well, lucky for me, I got paired with Scott, who is almost 6' and the biggest baller at my school. We stomped butt. We played 4 games five minutes each, and left with a game score of4-0. Then we took a 10 minute breather, went back in, and lost 4-4. I guess we had some karma to burn off. I told Amanda(I';ll get to her in a second) I blamed Montan, but I blamed him in a way that determined fate. Then I went to English, where we were drawing events that happened in a book in comic style. I did mine in Manga style, because comics are usually short and funny, and manga is long, and enjoyable. In one, I got a bit off topic, I drew a human sized ant standing next to two ant sized humans, with a moo-pig on the side. The ant says 'I stole cows', then the humans say 'We caught him!' and the moo-pig says 'Why'd ya do it, Johnny?' I don't know why, but then I started combining animals until I had this turtle shell with a chicken head up front, and chicken legs for fins, and a Science textbook with a mustasce, gotee, and really thick eyebrows.Then we went to History, where we started watching The Patriot for a study of the American Revolution. Finally I went to science, and listened to the sub drone on and on. The bitch held us three minutes after class. I came home, poured me a glass of Mountain Dew on the rocks, and started here! About Amanda! I'm in gifted classes, but last year, before I was, we were in the same standard class. I was always friendly towards her, but I had very little reason to be her friend. The I went into gifted, and I was a bit nicer to her. during the history fair I met her mom(I was polite), and gave her mom a good image of me. Over the Summer she had a birthday party at the waterpark 20 miles away and invited me. I paniced. I didn't know her well enough to know what to get her! But my mom came through at litterally the last hour, and decided it was a good idea to go and play safe. I got her the one gift you can give any woman and have her like it, jewelry. I spent(she doesn't know this) $80 on a gold(14k) necklace with a copper hummingbird in a flower(very detailed). We played in the park for 4 hours, and I was the only guy. All 9 of us stayed in a group the whole time, and it was very cool to be around 8 teenage girls in bikinis. When we opened gifts, I had her open hers from me last, and it was best. I could tell she liked it, and her mom was impressed. Her dad came up to me and mumbled in my ear "Decided to play it safe, eh?" She wore it to school the first month, and every couple of days since then, but something happened. I knew less of the people in my classes, so I became better friends with those I knew. I began to share my ideas with her, and talked to her alot. I could tell I was starting to like her. I wrote how I felt(I feel very childish having to write it) and the class period before I gave it to her, I hear from her friend she said yes to Hoffman! He asked her out last week, and she said yes!
Well, I gave her the sheet of paper then and there, and let her read it. She went home early that day, but wrote me a reply the next day. I dug it up to show you:
Dear ****,
First of all, DON'T LET ANYONE ELSE READ THIS! (*****Hoffman's feelings might get hurt!) You see, I have so much more fun around you then him! I don't know why I went out with him, I thought if I said no, he'd be hurt! I always thought you might like me, but since you never asked, I had my doubts. What I'm trying to say is I like you too. Right now, I have no reason to break up with him. But don't worry about my "feelings" for him, because there aren't any! Maybe if we do break up(only if you want to) you and I can go out! I hope this makes you feel better!
Your friend,
Amanda
Obviously, I have mixed emotions about that. Let's get some things straight. First, I have never had a girlfriend. Second, Amanda is much too sweet a girl to dump this guy for no reason. Third, if she did dump him because someone else wanted to, what's to stop her from dumping me when someone else asks her out? Fourth, she only knows Hoffman from her elective class. So I told her I wanted to go out with her, but I didn't want her to feel obligated to do it. Bad move on my part. She decided to see if she coulkd rekindle her and Hoffman's relationship. He hadn't done anything with/for her. She tried to get him to go to the movies, asked if he was going to the dance, and he just wasn't doing anything.it's been 2 months and she's still with him. I don't want to pressure her, but I think he's gonna win! So lately I've been using Amanda as a filter for my creative ideas, which in itself is a good idea. I'm including her opinion in my life, and making her feel special. But she won't dump Hoffman. And then I had a weird dream. I'll make a new entry for that, cause this is getting long. Sorry!
Posted at 06:12 pm by Akumeon
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Saturday, October 25, 2003
The Bible of the Honorable Cult of the Dragon God of Mountain Dew
The following is the bible for my religion, Montanism. Enjoy. Or pretend to.
Six Walls Of The Cosmos
(named after the six bends montan Duki makes circling the universe)
Six directions for a life of Duki
1. There is no drink but mountain Dew
2. There is no God but for the one great being that is Montan Duki
3. Give to the temple at least once in your lifetime
4. Spread the word of Montan Duki to all you deem worthy
5. You must exhibit no cruelty to any reptilian creatures or dragons, for they will get their revenge in the second coming
6. Make a pilgrimage to the pepsi factory at least once in your lifetime
"Do these things and you are granted eternal happiness"
I. Genesis
In the beginning there was nothing but Montan Duki. From his mouth frothed the very thing of life and happiness itself, of course it was not called Mountain Dew back then...
After many years, he felt that he must share his gift with something. So he created life in his own image...
dragons.
(This is different from other religions which cites humans as the master species and inheritors of the earth. It is very imperative to remember that Dragons are the master species and humans came as accidental)
(*note= there are two subspecies of dragons: the small land dragons (european) and large sky dragons(asian) . The ruler of all dragons, second in commnd to montan duki, is the smallest of all land dragons. he is mentioned later)
They lived for many eons on the still forming planet.They knew one thing only-the happiness that Mountain Dew gives.
II. The Great War a ma Bob
(in original texts, the great war thingy)
Over the years this monkey like thing evolved and it was called man. Unlike the dragons they had opposable thumbs. Greedy and thirsting for the strange happiness the dragons possessed, and archetyping all dragons as fire breathing beasts, an untrue fact created through legend, they waged the first and longest war ever waged. The height of the battle came in the Middle Ages as weapons technology advanced, until only a handful remained.
Montan Duki was angered by these inferior beings that came by from random evolution, that destroyed his plan for eternal happiness. The world went into a downward spiral as the essence of happiness dissapeared from the landscape.
(mountain dew is inexhaustibly created in dragon's interiors)
That is why we are never satisfied with our lives or acheivements.
However, he saw that humans were mentally more complex than dragons, in an arbitrary way. He withheld destroying them so he could study them destroying themselves.
III. Revival
In A.D. 1941*
Barney Hartman the chosen one** entered an aboandoned warehouse in Tennesee. There he found and slaughtered the Last Dragon on Earth, Steve the King of Dragons. But out of the Dragon's belly flowed the stuff of Duki...
He marketed it in liquid form, and called it, sheerly by coincidence, mountain dew.
And Montan Duki saw it was good.
(* originally A.D. 1970, but the topic was further reseached Mountain Dew seems to be older than I thought. More info at http://mountaindew.com/about_dew/history/index.php. A.D. stands for After Duki. I haven't tallied how, come on I havent gotten that far yet)
**originally Josep the chosen one, but the topic was further reseached)
IV. Second Revival
And yet, the people lived in ignorance until the important date A.D. 2002. Montan Duki decided it was time to reveal to the masses the future of their souls. He did not choose as prophet a dragon of his own image, or a man of power, but a little girl. He came in a vision to her every night,helping her spread the truth, the one and only truth: Montan Duki.
Determined to share her revelations, Aya went to school and told anyone who would listen everything she heard in her dreams. One day she sat on a table, and suddenly a thousand sayings entered her brain, and she began spouting like a madman.
"The very end of life itself is coming, but do not be afraind. Spread the word of Duki to all who will beleive, and you will be transformed into the cosmos itself. And even though you may die, you will still see with eyes unclouded. Even as your body rots in the soil, your spirit will remain unchanged. Anyone who will beleive me, come with me and spread not only truth, but hope."
Disciples stepped forward, and the revolution began.
(among other sayings that are nonsense right now)
At the end of the beginning, it is said, that the first returning dragon will come from heaven and she will ride it to Montan duki, to be eaten and reborn in an immortal body.*
*loose translation
V. Prophecy
At the end of human progress there will come a loosely referred by Montan Duki as the end of the beginning, the revolution will come. The second dragon race will be created by him. They will pour from the mountains and rise from the seas and rain from the skies, destroying all those who do not drink mountain dew. All of the Smited will be forgotten, and the believers will be granted the immortality of dragons, to live in mountain dew revelry until the end of time.*
*a complicated thing involving theories of Takari, a companion book thats also very long
VI. Diction
(aka rules comandments and expectations)
The holy shrine of the warrior monks lives within time.
A donated can of mountain dew will give you good luck for one week.
The cans are then trained in the ways of Duki combat. (which is kind of like tinmetal ninjitsu)
These warriors will play a pivotal role in the end of the beginning.
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No Soda besides the following is allowed by the faith
Mountain dew and all variations thereof
Livewire and all variations thereof
Code Red and all variations thereof
Amp
Other brands are generic shoddy cons to turn you to unhappiness. It is allowable to drink these as long as you drink two cans of mountain dew in the following week to cleanse them out of you. Otherwise your body is considered unclean and immoral.
Priests and prophets of the faith can only drink water, nonsoada, and mountain dew.
Pepsi is acceptable beacause it is the same brand.
Posted at 08:49 pm by Akumeon
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I don't want to give it a title. It would make it sound uninteresting, which isn't good. I want all of you to read this!
Good day to you! I thank you for taking time out of your day to read mindless babbling that will probably have no realavence to you what so ever! Today is Saturday....I went to Books-A-Million for 4 hours. I volunteer there every Saturday... it's a good way to rack up volunteer hours and read all kinds of new books and manga. Today someone stole a copy of "Annotated Legends", which is a Dragonlance book, which costs $35. He didn't even make it out the doors. He might have gotten away with it, if it weren't for us meddling people. Then Saha came and picked me up, and from there we went to Wal-Mart. I was a bit mischievious, and I took all the plungers, went to the end of the aisle, and ploped 'em down in neat little rows. No one could get in or out. Eventually an elderly woman by the name of 'Gertrude' came and chased me out the store, so I waited by the car for Saha. We came home, I got a Coca-Cola(I will be drinking two cans of Mountain Dew later tonight to cleanse the Coke from my body(more on that later)), and sat down at my computer. That's where I am now. I will probably write again tomorrow to tell if I got any homework done or to share my frustraton/angst/sorrow/glee. Until then, yours Truely,
MJ
Posted at 06:36 pm by Akumeon
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Friday, October 24, 2003
Entry #1, no more blue candy...
Hi! my name is ******* ***********, but you can't call me that. You may call me MJ, Akumeon, or sometimes Stoney. My offical title is High Priest MJ, Dictator of Wishful Thinking, and Creator. I know it's very bold, but I really am a high priest. I am at the moment the only high priest of The Honorable Cult of the Dragon God of Mountan Dew, commonly called Montanism. If you payed attention in history though, you would know that Montanism is actually on old form af Christianity, founded by Montanus is 196 A.D. It died out less than 20 years later, so we find it legal(religioous wise) to call ourselves Montans. Anyways. I'm 13, but i'll be 14 on Halloween(yes really), and I am NOT the spawn of Satan, nor do I work for him, although you can spell Santa from Satan. I 'm just a boy. My life has just begun. I like anime, manga, the Seatbelts, science, fire, I'd like to learn japanise and how to fence, I like abstract art, Role Playing Games(currently on second file of Final Fantasy Tactics Advance), my (few) friends(Anna, Amanda, and Alexis), comedy, money, Neopets(it's a thing to do to make people happy(i'm stoneyjr8900)), umm....i'm running out of things I like....the internet! I like knowing people as pixels on my computer screen, even though they are really complete strangers in a different place that I could pass by everyday and not even realize it. I am fascinated by Hitlar, the third Reich, communism, and ideas that work better on paper than when practiced. I don't like vegetables, realistic books/movies, History(kinda contradictory to my fascinations), work, the Amish(no offense(not that this should relate to anyone reading this)), opposing forces, Basketball, the Gainsville Gators, German Sheperds, funky foods, and Cory Holton. That about all the likes and dislike at the moment. I have two habits I hate, I procrastinate, and I talk back. And get called a smart ass. I'd rather be a smart ass than a dumb ass. Rather be pissed off than pissed on. I started puberty at age 10(no joke), so I matured early in life... I have a 4.0 GPA, so I matured faster. I am too cynical for my own good, ofter causing self pain. I'm ot of things to say, I hope blogdrive.com is a good place to vent my emotions, and I hope they don't use it to form a profile for the government about me. That is why they make these online journals. Think about it: why would anyone spend hundreds of dollars for nothing? Because they sell the infoormation to the government for profit! I'm on to you, blogdrive.com!
MJ
Posted at 09:18 pm by Akumeon
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