Entry: Will anyone read this? I'd like to know I'm not writing this for just myself... Monday, October 27, 2003
Hello again! Today is Monday, October 27th, and only 4 more days until my birthday. Or rather, 4 days until I was born 14 years ago. Today at school in second period gym we were playing basketball, and basketball is not a good game for me because I cannot throw or catch. I can dribble and run though! Well, lucky for me, I got paired with Scott, who is almost 6' and the biggest baller at my school. We stomped butt. We played 4 games five minutes each, and left with a game score of4-0. Then we took a 10 minute breather, went back in, and lost 4-4. I guess we had some karma to burn off. I told Amanda(I';ll get to her in a second) I blamed Montan, but I blamed him in a way that determined fate. Then I went to English, where we were drawing events that happened in a book in comic style. I did mine in Manga style, because comics are usually short and funny, and manga is long, and enjoyable. In one, I got a bit off topic, I drew a human sized ant standing next to two ant sized humans, with a moo-pig on the side. The ant says 'I stole cows', then the humans say 'We caught him!' and the moo-pig says 'Why'd ya do it, Johnny?' I don't know why, but then I started combining animals until I had this turtle shell with a chicken head up front, and chicken legs for fins, and a Science textbook with a mustasce, gotee, and really thick eyebrows.Then we went to History, where we started watching The Patriot for a study of the American Revolution. Finally I went to science, and listened to the sub drone on and on. The bitch held us three minutes after class. I came home, poured me a glass of Mountain Dew on the rocks, and started here! About Amanda! I'm in gifted classes, but last year, before I was, we were in the same standard class. I was always friendly towards her, but I had very little reason to be her friend. The I went into gifted, and I was a bit nicer to her. during the history fair I met her mom(I was polite), and gave her mom a good image of me. Over the Summer she had a birthday party at the waterpark 20 miles away and invited me. I paniced. I didn't know her well enough to know what to get her! But my mom came through at litterally the last hour, and decided it was a good idea to go and play safe. I got her the one gift you can give any woman and have her like it, jewelry. I spent(she doesn't know this) $80 on a gold(14k) necklace with a copper hummingbird in a flower(very detailed). We played in the park for 4 hours, and I was the only guy. All 9 of us stayed in a group the whole time, and it was very cool to be around 8 teenage girls in bikinis. When we opened gifts, I had her open hers from me last, and it was best. I could tell she liked it, and her mom was impressed. Her dad came up to me and mumbled in my ear "Decided to play it safe, eh?" She wore it to school the first month, and every couple of days since then, but something happened. I knew less of the people in my classes, so I became better friends with those I knew. I began to share my ideas with her, and talked to her alot. I could tell I was starting to like her. I wrote how I felt(I feel very childish having to write it) and the class period before I gave it to her, I hear from her friend she said yes to Hoffman! He asked her out last week, and she said yes!
Well, I gave her the sheet of paper then and there, and let her read it. She went home early that day, but wrote me a reply the next day. I dug it up to show you:
Dear ****,
First of all, DON'T LET ANYONE ELSE READ THIS! (*****Hoffman's feelings might get hurt!) You see, I have so much more fun around you then him! I don't know why I went out with him, I thought if I said no, he'd be hurt! I always thought you might like me, but since you never asked, I had my doubts. What I'm trying to say is I like you too. Right now, I have no reason to break up with him. But don't worry about my "feelings" for him, because there aren't any! Maybe if we do break up(only if you want to) you and I can go out! I hope this makes you feel better!
Your friend,
Amanda
Obviously, I have mixed emotions about that. Let's get some things straight. First, I have never had a girlfriend. Second, Amanda is much too sweet a girl to dump this guy for no reason. Third, if she did dump him because someone else wanted to, what's to stop her from dumping me when someone else asks her out? Fourth, she only knows Hoffman from her elective class. So I told her I wanted to go out with her, but I didn't want her to feel obligated to do it. Bad move on my part. She decided to see if she coulkd rekindle her and Hoffman's relationship. He hadn't done anything with/for her. She tried to get him to go to the movies, asked if he was going to the dance, and he just wasn't doing anything.it's been 2 months and she's still with him. I don't want to pressure her, but I think he's gonna win! So lately I've been using Amanda as a filter for my creative ideas, which in itself is a good idea. I'm including her opinion in my life, and making her feel special. But she won't dump Hoffman. And then I had a weird dream. I'll make a new entry for that, cause this is getting long. Sorry!